| Well heres the story...... |
[Oct. 2nd, 2004|09:02 am] |
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I just typed out this whole big thing and of course it didnt post so i will just do it again, because i love re-typing things it gives me a chance to perfect my typing speed. :)
Well for starters I am happy in love. His name is Brandon and we met thru my cousin. He is all that I have wished for and more then I ever dreamt. Sometimes I forget that I have him, and its like i get soo excited when I remember that i do have him and that hes all mine... ahhhhh im falling more in love just thinking about it. His family likes me and my family likes him. Hes the first guy that has gotten to be around ALL my family and so far so good.. he even passed the uncle inspection. lol Hes my baby and I could see myself with him for a really long time. :) We just celebrated our one month on the 22 and we're still going strong. Shiiiiitttt hes my bitch and im his nigga, lol
People are wondering wat happened to Gary... its not that ne thing happened to him its just that things are done. They ended on a great note and maybe we were both thinking the same thing because I havent talked to him in 2 months, im not sad now and i wasnt sad then. He will always have that lil place in my heart.
Next... school starts in January and im thinking about doubling up on my classes because i have been out for son long, but i dunno we'll see. Ya'll know i can get a lil bit obssessive,lol ( that was for you Limburg). As far as a job i am working at Mcdonalds because I needed a job, ive been there for almost 3 weeks, and its going pretty good, i havent gotten a pay check yet but when i do it will all go to bills so thats fun,lol. Anyways guess what... Capital One gave me a credit card,lol. I live with my aunt now, and so does Kimberly we all have been having so much fun. This is the year to remember.
Crayola Gurls: Majenta* me
Lavender* kimber
Aqua* Jazz
Yellow* Kira
In due time things will be alright... we will count down the days and keep it locked while they got you. We love u Deuce Deuce nigga... U taking me to work lol
Im soo happy for you peaches you deserve this..... and of course you know im happy that I was right :) Congrats....awwwwwwww I love you 2!!
One day at a time 89101112828143...always be my boo
I miss you Ags and Mars Muah* Jessica u bitch,lol jp
Thats all i have to say for now. Ill try to update wayyyyyyy more.
Quote for the day*
* If you knew everyday that a rainbow would appear would you care if it rained?* |
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| * Misisng My Baby* |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|08:52 am] |
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| | "Kissing You" by Total | ] |
Kissin' you is all that I been thinking of
Kissin' you is
Don't matter who knows
I don't care who sees me
And thinking about you makes my life complete
And what I mean by that
That my whole world changes
You make me feel things that I never felt
I wanna kiss you
When I'm with my friends
I'm trying to figure out a way
To leave 'em behind just to get back to you
Oh, you're my best kept secret
And that's the way I like it
You're my pride and joy boy
That's why I'm dreaming of you
I wanna kiss you
You're my pride and joy
You're my baby boy
People ask me how I feel about you
They ask me if I love you (yeah)
Am I crazy for you (yeah yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Kissing you is so good
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I been thinking 'bout you, dreaming 'bout you, thinking about, you yeah, y eah
Oh kissing you is so good
Got to have it, have your love that's all I'm thinking of
Song Name: "Kissing you" by Total
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On Wed night I realized just how I feel about Gary. He is so caring and sweet. This time next week he will be back in VA... and im sad but at the same time happy. Its so hard to put into words what I feel about the situation but one was is that its "OK" and i truly believe that.
Me and my better fruity half are great just as i anticipated we would be. I love her soo much and was so happy that she called me and we were able to talk about things.
Wed night was pretty scary..I have never had a nervous break down and am prolly using the word loosely, but i strongly feel that is what I had on Wed night. It was so scary.... enough about that.
Well I am growing up and changing in ways that I didnt see happening for awhile but hey i guess when its ur turn its just ur turn. Im excited about the things that are hopefully in store for me within these next few months. woo hoo finally!
Chels and them will be home tonight so im happy about that. I missed them.
well i gotta go get down to business. Love yas!
Quote for the day:
"Believe in it"~ |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2004|11:35 am] |
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Well I am in PAIN right now because I twisted my back or something anyways it hurts like a bitch.
Last nite Elyse came over and we drove around and talked forever... it was very good but then it decided to start pouring down raining and of course I had no umbrella so what did i do?? Well duh i took off my shirt and used it as an umbrella and my bra as a cell phone holder,lol.... pics of that will be here soon,lol. Thanks Limburg. (side note) R.I.P Granpa # 1 Fan... say hi to cousin Lisa you 2 will love each other.
Mama, JOsh and Chelso are gone.. the house is pretty weird without them I miss them so much I sleep with Joshs' shirt and a picture of mama and Chels every night (im such a little kid). *
So Gary has been home since July 2nd and Sunday was the first day we saw each other since hes been home. The way I was feeling about him is that he must not have wanted to see me at all, and that he didnt like me anymore... but really what makes me think that? Well he made plans with me a few times and then didnt go through with it and it was making me mad so i decided to just let it be watever it was going to be. I told him if he wanted to hang out then he could call me. The situation with me and him is wierd atleast i think it is... but seriously how much can I expect from him hes not my bf hes my friend... I mean i know its a little bit more then that but hes not the bf. I've been realizing so many things this summer and I am a brat when it comes to guys... and Im going to stay that way, if I dont get exactly what I want then oops yo bad. Anyways back to the Gary story... so im not still pissed that he hasnt seen me because if lived in another state and came home for the summer, I would be with my friends a hell of a lot too. The only thing is he didnt have to make plans with me.... i know he wanted to chill, but i dunno. He has told me to come over but i guess i would have to have special powers to get there.lol Anyways my point is he came over on Sunday and honestly it went perfect. It went the exact way I wanted it to... and I knew that as soon as I saw him and we hung out things would pick right back up. And they did... but now he is back in Virginia because he has to register for school. So he'll be back next week and hopefully we can pick up where we left off. I miss him soooo much its crazy. I just want him here with me mannnnnn! *Nothing in this World*
* highlights from Sunday nite with Gary and Vonta*
~*~ Bad Santa~
Me: Vonta im gonna have this towel ok because new best frends give each other stuff
Vonta: you stole my towel
Me: noooooo you gave it to me because we're best friends, and it doesnt matter cause im not giving it back
Me: Baby look Vonta let me have his towel
Vonta is my new best friend because he let me have the towel and a rubber band...and he signed my towel.
Gary: do you guys have ne small bags of chips
Me: baby here look in here
Gary : sweetie i dont want any dog food (lol)
*camera phones are badddd lol
ECT...... awwwww my poo poo (lol.. i dont know where he gets these things from)
I cant even type ne more my back hurts so bad grrrrrrrrr
" Lets make the most of these moments together" |
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| Cedar Point Moments! |
[Jul. 29th, 2004|10:54 am] |
The drive down
* Justins Nascar Driving
* acting out Becky
* oops i did it again
* mouthing our words
* Lloyd Banks cd....
@ the Hotel
* silly strings....
* we're 2 for 2
* spinning around in circles
* jumping on the bed
* writing a note because we were playing the "silent game"
* fucking the guys up...as always
* WHOA!
* we got reprimanded for being to loud...thanx dad
* shhh we'll just be quiet
They want us to fuck em up... we'll just "pop" em,lol
@ Cedar Point
* feeling like im fighting with my bf all day (sidenote dont have one...see the problem)
* Chels was bout to fuck up some girl
* Magnum...Wicked Twister... Mantis and the Raptor.... ok lets go home now
* Justin: i looked over and her eyes were closed the whole time
Krys: wellll ill try to keep them open for the next ride
* Chels: krys you looked like you were going to throw up
me: I was
* us: we'll have grilled cheese and fries..oh yea with a water
Family Vacation!
I love u Chels |
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[Jul. 20th, 2004|06:04 pm] |
"My place"~ Nelly
I used to pride myself on being the other man
But now it's flipped and I don't want you with no other man
Why can't you understand anything I'm offering
I gave you the world, but you just wanted arguing
From the time I picked you up, until the time I dropped you off again
Even if flipped out on at the mall again
"It's all his fault again" that's what you tellin all ya friends
I ain't pointing fingers ma, i just wanna call again
See how ya day going I know they stressin on ya
I know them times get hard that's why I'm checkin on ya
It's yours truly ma, I got little message for ya
Anything he can do, girl I can do better for ya
Cause
Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)
[Nelly]
I heard your friend tell a friend that told a friend of mine
That you was thinking that we should do it one more time
If this ain't the truth then hopefully it's not a lie
Cause I ain't got no issue with hitting that another time
We never had a problem with gettin it done
Disagreed upon a lot ma, but sex wouldn't one
Now check it I know you get excited when I come around and bite it
Quit frownin up and quit actin like you don't like it
I like it (I know you like), I like it (You really like it), I really, really like it,
I want it (You really want it), adore it (adore it), so come with me enjoy it
Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)
Bridge: [Nelly]
Shawty where you been
Feels like a long time, long long time since I seen ya
Yes it has girl, and I know I said some dumb things to you before
But girl you know I didn't mean it
I didn't mean one single word
I never meant one single word
If I could take back every word I would and more fa sho
If I thought that you believe it
Cause you make my life so convinient for me
Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever
Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)
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"Weak"
I don't know what it is that you've done to me
But it's caused me to act in such a way
Whatever it is that you do when you do what you do to me
It's a feeling that I don't understand
Cuz my heart starts beating triple time
With thoughts of loving you on my mind
I can't figure out just what to do
When the cause and cure is you
(Chorus)
I get so weak in my knees I can hardly speak
I lose all control
and something takes over me
In a daze, you look so amazing
It's not a phase
I need you to stay with me
By my side, I swallow my pride
Your love is so sweet, it knocks me right off of my feet
I can't explain why your loving makes me weak
Verse 2:
Time after time after time I try to fight it
Your love is strong it keeps on holdin on
Resistance is down when your around cries fading
In your condition I don't want to be alone
Cuz my heart starts beating triple time
With thoughts of lovin you on my mind
I can't figure out just what to do
When the cause and cure is you
(chorus)
Brigde-
I try hard to fight it
No way can I deny it
Your love so sweet
Knocks me off my feet
Chorus-
Verse 3-
-I get so weak-
Blood starts racing
through my veins
-I get so weak-
Boy it's something
I can't explain
-I get so weak-
Something bout the way ya do
The things you do it
Knocks me right off of my feet-
Can't explain why your lovin makes me weak |
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| Oh No HeLLLL No* |
[Jul. 11th, 2004|12:31 am] |
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Hey sugars!! Heres a lil update for u guys...awww im sooo sweet. Well right now i am in the process of drinking my water that i got from McDonalds...lol~ u had to be there to understand why this water is soooooo important,lol. Anyways last night (Friday night) Chels and I went to Patricks with him and Justin so we could fux with it u know. We got our 12 pack and it was on. lol Last night was prolly one of the best nights I have had in awhile (well last Saturday nite was fun, but im saying this was funnnnn too)~
HIGHLIGHTS from FRi
*Oh no HELLLL no (patrick lmfao)
* just fuck him up ..... I just fucked him up
* PARTAY!!!!
* dancing on the patio..we're CRAZY
* I wonder if it would hurt if we jumped down from here
* Its Perfect.... balconies hmmmmmm damn
* "you guys have already spilled 2 beers"
* me: Justin as soon as u finish that beer that means ur ready to get fucked up
Justin: no never... u guys are weak
* one word: Burp (Chels thats really cute)
* the humping dance..its funnier when u do it Chels
* Chels opening the bathroom when i just sat down to pee
* beer makes Chels very masculine (burping, sitting sprawled)
* the guys: what the fuck are u guys doing?
us: nothing just getting a beer
DAYUUMMMMM!
* Justin: fucking bitch did I really??
Chels: yea Justin u did drop the table on my foot
(im not to sure those were the exact words, but close enough)
* Justin: "a bb cccc a b c"~ i think thats right
* me hitting my head ( i dont remember that AT ALL)
* Me and Chels: hell yea fucking just lock us out dont forget the screen door too, why not? we love it... fucking pull the blinds too
* me: so ne ways he did.......
Chels: puking
me: and then.....
Chels: puking
me: and thennnnnnnn...........
Chels: i gotta pee
me: I have to pee didnt u just pee
Chels: no i was throwing up
I cant think of ne more, ill have to ask Chels later.
SO......... today we went to Becky's for a lil bit then we went to babysit...that took about 48375895 hrs but thats cool. I love little kids play things in the backyard they really come in handy... haha.
Oh yea today was national call ex gf day.. i received a phone call from Joshua which was pretty cool because he said "can i speak to Krystal" and then when i said "this is" he did one of those real mature moves he used to pull when we were together and said "oops" and hung up so that was pretty tite, and then Carlos called so that was even cooler. I love it when u tell a guy that they had there last chance and u arent playing the run around game with them ne more and instead of them believing you they just call u and say dumb shit.... so thats AWESOME. Anyways im bout to go put my weed hand in the sky then im off to bed cause I dont feel good holla at ya girl
WHY NOT???? |
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[Jun. 29th, 2004|08:49 pm] |
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Sooooo i just got home from getting ice cream with Kimber and Lavele (and he says I never call him....see one step in the right direction people give me time). Anyways so yea where the hell have I been??? I have been chilling laying low with my baby doll Chelsea. We have had the most amazing time lately... its been great. I have been truly happy. I had a few things but I hung in there and now look at me.... lol just kidding. So lets see whats been going on since ive been gone..damn I feel like Mase "welcome back welcome back". Mars left me such a sad message....aww muah I love and miss you too Mars Bars! Things with the guys are ummm pretty much non existent. There are the occasional phone calls that I share with Gary (we dont talk like we used to but thats ok). Ummm lets see well today I called Dan and guess who answered.... drum roll please Krystle. I swear I love it when girls I cant stand just insist on answering theire bf's phone when clearly I cant stand them,and its dumb. We have nothing to talk about so why are you guys answering DUHHHH! *(side note)* JuJuan's new gf answers his phone when I call, or either she will just return the call if its a missed one from me....wow isnt she just so full of sweetness..... shes a fucking bitch. Anyways it was fun to see Kimber again.... we have worked out the little gripes (haha thats for you Chels) so we're doing good. I love my sister and cousin they are the best... I smile like no other when I think about Kimber and Chels*smile* Isnt it crazy to think that just last year we were all just graduated and trying to party as much, but look around and see who is still there. I swear last year the people that I depended on the most without a doubt where JuJuan, Dan,Kimber,and Chels.... now dont get me wrong my other girls and boys (Lavele,Kourtney) where definitely there for me whenever I needed them.... (Mars and Ags u guys are always fucking there for me..Muah)(limburg....hmmm what can I say... u make me moist with ur amazing friendship,lol) but you guys know exactly what im talking about...well things change. As I look around right now I see things change drastically and the only thing you can do is watch it all happen in slow motion (no pun intended).
Anyways lets see whats on my mind, umm nothing to major. Oh yea ummm I needs to get laid,lol. I mean hey this is my journal I can say it, we're all adults. At least I didnt say I was gonna go out and get me a random guy.. I can wait. But lord only knows... hahaha Im crazy
Well ne ways i think its time for me to go see what Chels is doing. Ladies and gents holla at ya girl.
Quote of the day: "would I be violating if I grabbed me a handful"???
DD's!!!! Trickster!!!~ U know who you are!!
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[May. 25th, 2004|09:50 pm] |
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Well well well. I am very very tired, and have a hectic 2 weeks coming up. Wow can anyone believe we have been out of high school for almost a year. DAMN and I still act like a lil kid... oops oh well.lol Well when i woke up this morning i told mama "today is a gloomy day" and sure enough it was. I went to work and seriously out of no where started to cry. I went into the bathroom let out a few sobs and came back, only to start one of the most gut wrenching poems i have written in a long time. Well if you dont know then ill tell you now... Thurs of this week is the one year anniversary of my cousins death. Needless to say that isnt a good subject or ne thing. But it does explain my crazy mood swings.. im about to explode on someone. This whole past month has truly been CRAZY... its been one thing after another, but hopefully after this month is over things will start to pick back up. Truthfully i dont know what I would do without mama and Chels. I felt so shitty at work, and all day all i could think about was coming home and just unloading, and have them love me still. Of course they did when i came home. I just cried and cried on Chels shoulder.... man i thought i was the older sister....shes so strong. After that we went to Chels convocations. I am soooo proud of my poodah pooh!
Anyways I talked to Dan today for about 5 mins. But i think things may be okay. Im not 47578586% sure, but then again what am I ever sure about,lol.
So im thinking Gary isnt coming home.... fine by me.
If ne thing is going to happen with him or any guy for that matter im not gonna sit back and try to watch it happen. I want it to surprise me. Besides whats the use of putting urself on hold for something that is going to happen if its meant to anyways ya know??? Well thats my theory and I like it,lol
* U Like it*~ Mars and Ags Muah
Im trying to think of something interesting... nope cant think of ne thing. lol This was just to update because i never do ne more. lol I wanna get back on track.
Quote for the nite
*Tears are words the heart can't say* |
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[May. 23rd, 2004|11:50 pm] |
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Well its Sunday nite so I have to talk about my exciting weekend. lol It was a very GOOD weekend. I spent everyday at home with Chels.... we were spending our good ol quality time. I loved it!!! Im happppppppppppy..... i think some of my stress has been lifted Chels. We laughed sooo much, and went to sleep at 10 on friday and 11 last nite. Wow im sorry to the people I had to call back. (sidenote) i need the Canada dish. lol
I dont have ne thing to write about so im gonna go. Has any listened to that song "Get Out" by Jo JO if not then u should its cute.
Quote for the nite " I stay drunk in the winter and high in the summer"
nite nite |
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| Im a sensitive Bitch*~* |
[May. 21st, 2004|08:46 am] |
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Side Note* Happy Birthday Mars Bars!(May 17th)* muah*
Random funny funny:
Me: Chels lets play gold fish (go fish)
Chels: Ok later
* Because I USEEED it
* Playing ball in the middle of Krogers
* coughing.... more coughing....and a lil bit more
* oooh goody goody got the morning woody
* uh oh i dont have on any underwear
* me and my random attitude probs..lol... maybe next week i can stop being so stressed,lol
* Good times with the sister**
Well since yesterday I left in the middle of typing to go indulge in a lil gambling.I can pick up where I left off. Friends..... I am soo lucky to have friends on different levels.. lets see I have: awesome, lower then dirt and "i just dont give a fuck". Wow wow... btw if u need to question me of "hey krys is that thing in ur journal about me" then perhaps it is..hhmmmmmm tricky tricky huh. Well for starters am I wrong for wanting wat I give to my friends back in return?? Im talkin the big shit like caring.... for some it seems to be like pulling out teeth. I cant understand why I am feeling so bad about a certain friendship (this is the I just dont give a fuck friend) but i do. I am not going to get into full blown details about that because in my eyes... if the situation is going to be resolved then perhaps that person should know wat a piece of shit him/her is from me before I broadcast it in here. And please dont ask who the friend is. Now my lower than dirt friend comes from a random place.... my heart. Sadly to say. How can you love someone? care about them? hold then when they cry? give them everything.... and in the end have it all not mean a thing. This is not get back together talk this is how come we cant even be civil to each other. Its pretty random the things that go on between him and I... and still to this day I cant figure it out. It hurts like hell though.... I can never just call and say hey whats up how are you doing... none of that. And the reason why I will probably never know. The worst kind of answer is the one you'll never know. I wish that things could be different... and I guess im the one whos sorry.
So next week Gary is supposed to be home, but I am not sure if he is in fact coming home. I havent talked to him in like a week... so we'll see. Last nite Mars and I were driving home and i finally got excited, but im sure I wont see him. In a perfect world we would see each other. But i think hes only gonna be here for like a few days...and he has family to see, and friends... so im not sure where the girl whos crazy about him fits into the schedule. *smiles anyways*
I decided the other day that I am a very sensitive bitch... I used to wear my heart on my sleeve but I cant do that ne more. I have within the last 2 years of my life given guys entirely too much power over me, which i am taking the fuck back for Summer 2004 shiiiit. No more bullshit... I mean why waste each others time? We all know that in the end shit will either end up two ways.. ur either with someone or ur not.
*I wished for a prince..and for a sixteen yr old girl like me u were my prince. You were my everything, the reason I smiled, laughed, lived. No one understands us or what we had quite like me and you, but thats good. Thats what will make it something extra special ...but in turns makes this extra painful and hard. I cant go thru this game anymore, I cant do the back and forth up and down. In the back of my mind i guess sometimes I think that the reason u come back is because we're supposed to be together, but we're not baby and thats something we have to realize. No matter what you will always be the one whom I'll always love and think about, but just because we love each other does not mean we have to be together. I'll always remember the good things that happened and try to block out the not so good times. I'll never ever stop believing that we had something that ppl wait forever for, but we cant keep doing this its not fair to our hearts. I'll always love you even if you do get fat... u know why cause i love you that much (smile)* 1/8/02 |
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| Ahhhhh Shit |
[May. 20th, 2004|07:15 pm] |
well hmm this hasnt been updated in awhile. So im glad to say this entry will be wayyyyy more juicy then all the most recent entries. I have talks about, friends,guys,myself....ooooh the who Sha-Bang or whatever you call it. Well i know everyone thats reading this is most likely my friends soo i know u all are dying to see what I have to say about friends. Well since im so sweet ill start there....
i have to play poker si this has to wait |
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| Ahhhhh Shit |
[May. 20th, 2004|07:15 pm] |
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well hmm this hasnt been updated in awhile. So im glad to say this entry will be wayyyyy more juicy then all the most recent entries. I have talks about, friends,guys,myself....ooooh the who Sha-Bang or whatever you call it. Well i know everyone thats reading this is most likely my friends soo i know u all are dying to see what I have to say about friends. Well since im so sweet ill start there.... |
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| *Its been a long time* |
[May. 2nd, 2004|05:45 pm] |
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I havent updated in quite some time... well with random songs but never an actual story and im sure yall miss it. So here we go:
Friday: I went to the mall with my Mars Dogg...... that was sooo fun!Then that night I went to the Sterling Play which was very good... Argento deserves an oscar, and im going to make her one. lol After that Mars and I hung out with Kevin... we cruised Gratiot bitches,lol.
* I think he wants to give you the favor
* I dont have any boobs
* Come to Kmart... no come to McDonalds
* Kevin loves Mars more than me
* The stalking boy that love Kevin
* Kevin replaying the accident "remember this ooh look.. BANG"
* one word :threesome (lol)~ wats with the boys wanting to have threesomes with us all the time Mars??!!??
* text messages when we were all right next to each other
* Mars sigh of relief after she sent hers
*kevin is afraid of my loving
* me flashing Kevin and the people in front of us
* Kevin is ashamed of his job
* kevin is always bullshitting
* Mars looks soo cute in his hat
..... i cant think of ne more
*sorry bout that Ags******
Saturday* I went to see my husband William Hung with Doobie and Mels
It was fun.... a lil rough but Mels and I ended seeing him run right pass. Mels feels bad for him and I dont know why,lol.
Saturday nite Chels and I went to Pauls.... lets say umm throwing up is probably better to do when ur head is in the toilet. Chels and I think we are so bigg.... we are.... right? lol
* Chelsea puking and wanting to hug me because i was crying
* Paul spilling my drink and telling ppl i did it because i was drunk
* me : Chels i just had a talk with Paul about you
Chels: wat did u say
me: I dont remember
* Yeah! Yeah!
..... thats all i can remember
Ummm drunken cries last night for JuJuan which is AWESOME. Now i cant get him off of my mind so thats even better.
Today I babysat with Limburger.... she just falls asleep sometimes,lol. Now im home sitting on my ass. Wow surprise surprise*
Til lata babies!
* I know you can't give me what i want and need, but that doesn't stop me from missing you. You cant give me the relationship I want, but you can give me one more hug, one more kiss, one more hug....and you can give one more goodbye*
Oohh i made that quote up all by myself :)
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BODY:
1. What do you most like about your body?: my chas chas duh
2. And least?: stomach... i want a 6 pack like Ags and Chels
3. How many fillings do wish you had?: huh
4. Do you think you're good looking?: im alright
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good looking?: yea
6. Do you like any celebrities?: Who doesn't?! yess do u want me to name them... i just cant do that right now
FASHION
1. Do you wear a watch?: nope
2. How many coats and jackets do you own?: i dunno
3. Favorite pants color?: jeans
4. Most expensive item of clothing?: i dunno
5. What kind of shoes do you wear?: depends on the outfit duhhhh
YOUR FRIENDS
1. Do your friends 'know' you?: yah
2. What do they tend to be like?: funny, fun to be around... i dunno
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked?: i dunno.. i fun to be around
4. How many people do you tell everything to?: o wow
MUSIC, TV, FILM & BOOKS:
1. Favorite group ever?: Do you even need to ask?!?! i dunno
2. Most listened to singer: i dunno.. MOnica.... it changes daily
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking?: OF COURSE!
4. Can you play an instrument?: nope
5. Type of music never listened to?: i think i have heard everything
GENERAL QUESTIONS:
1. Who is the smartest woman alive at the moment?: "Mapquest"
2. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day?: Sunny
3. Do you consider yourself lucky?: im alive
4. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide?: yeah
5. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often: hyper
MORE JUNK:
1. Name: Yvonne Krystal Tameshia Lawson
2. Do you like it?: Nope
3. Nick-names: Shorty,Cream,Krys,Krissie,Ma,Lil Mama, Dinky, Caramel...ect
4. Screen names: Spnkys03 and HeavenzPrinces03
5. Age: 18
6. Birthday: August 26, 1985...same as the boy from Home Alone.. but i dont know how to spell his name,lol
7. Sign: Virgo
8. Location: Sterling heights
9. Job: Morpace International.... i call ppl all day
10. Status: dont know what ur talking about *sidenote* i talk about a lot of guys tho..lol
11. Crush: oh lord
12. Virgin?: im sorry that is MY business k!
13. Natural hair color: brown
14. Current hair color: Black
15. Eye color: depending on the day ima trickster.... naturally brown tho
16. Height: 5'1" (i wish i were taller)
17. Weight: 130
18. Birthplace: im not sure
19. Shoe size: 7 1/2
FAMILY:
1. Parents: its kinda hard to answer that
2. Siblings: a lot!
3. Live with: Powells
4. Favorite relatives: Kimberly,Jazz,Nichole,nana, clauders,lisa,edith ect
FAVORITES:
1. Number:3
2. Color: Purple
3. Day: i dont care
4. Month: August... its my birfday month
6. Movie: Love and Basketball, Ghost, Bad Boys 1&2, Brown Sugar, Rush HOur...ect
7. Food: i dont care ill eat it all... no seafood im allergic
8. Band: D~12 (lmfao)
9. Sport: Cheerleading..It is a sport, and Basketball
10. Class: english
11. Teacher: Ms. Gandolfi aka Stephanie
12. Drink: Mt Dew
13. Veggie: peas
14. TV station: i dun care
15. Radio station: 93.1, 95.5, 105.9, and 97.9
16. Store: hmmm i dunno
17. Expression: Are u being serious right now... in real life?
18. Animal: dogs
19. Flower: all
PICK ONE
1. Me or you: You
2. Coke or pepsi: coke
3. Day or night: umm doesnt matter
4. AOL or AIM: aim
5. CD or cassette? cd
6. DVD or VHS: dun care they both have the same thing
7. Jeans or khakis: jeans
8. Car or truck: dont care
9. Tall or short: tall
10. Lunch or dinner: lunch
11. N*sync or BSB?: hmmm i dun care
12. Gap or Old Navy: Old Navy
13. Lipstick or lipgloss: lipgloss
14. Silver or gold: sliver
15. Alcohol or weed: i dont do ne of those illegal things k!
LOVE & RELATIONSHIPS
1. Do you have a bf/gf?: nope.... and never will
2. Do you have a crush?: lord i dunno
3. How long have you liked him/her: ...............................
4. Why do you like this person?: ........................................
5. If you're single, why are you single?: Because I make bad choices, and because guys suck ass
6. How long was your longest relationship?: or lord.....well in 6th grade i dated a boy over the phone for a year...... then i dated Curtis for almost a year....... and then Jujuan for like 8 or something..... its up in the air...take ur pick
7. How long was your shortest relationship?: 1 day haha...or an hr
8. Who was your 1st love?: Jujuan...
9. What do you miss about them?: everything :/.... i thought this was supposed to be a fun quiz
THE PAST:
1. What is the one thing you would change about your past?: Choices that I have made in every aspect of life
2. What is the biggest mistake you've made in your life?: I dunnooooo
3. Last thing you heard: the washer and dryer
5. Last thing you said: "no thank you" to Paul when he asked if i wanted food
6. What is the last TV show you saw?: ummm I watched a cartoon earlier
7. What is the last song you heard?: "Should,woulda,coulda" by Brian McKnight
THE PRESENT:
1. What are you wearing?: some gray sweat pants and a black long sleeve shirt
2. What are you doing?: this survey and listening to Kazaa
3. Who are you talking to?: no one
4. What song are you listening to?: "Shoulda,Woulda,Coulda" by Brian McKnight
5. Where are you?: computer room
6. Who are you with?: no one
7. Are you online?: of course
8. How are you feeling?: hungover,lonesome..... and relaxed
9. Are you in a chatroom?: nope... havent been in one of those since Kels made one like 2 mnths ago
FUTURE:
1. What day is it tomorrow?: Sunday
2. What are you going to do after this?: chill
3. Who are you going to talk to?: dont know
4. Where are you going to go?: no where i dont feel like doing ne thing
5. How old will you be when you graduate?: prolly 21-22 (im starting school late)
6. What do you wanna be?: social worker.... or maybe a psychologists
7. What is one of your dreams?: To live a good fulfilling life
8. Where will you be in 25 years?: hopefully married, with a beautiful family
OTHER:
1. Do you write in cursive or print?:both
2. Are you a lefty or a a righty?: righty
3. What piercings do you have?:belly button,ears, and a secret one lol..soon to be belly again
4. Do you drive?: not to much
5. Do you have glasses or braces: yes glasses no braces |
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| Cant wait to feel love like this |
[Apr. 21st, 2004|08:03 am] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | "i'll be" edwin mccain | ] |
"i'll be"~ Edwin McCain
The strands in your eyes, that color them wonderful.
Stop me and steal my breath.
Emeralds from mountains, thrust towards the sky,
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together...
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above.
Chorus
I'll be your crying shoulder.
I'll be love suicide.
I'll be better when I'm older.
I'll be the greatest fan of your life..
And rain falls angry on the tin roof,
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof,
My love is alive not dead.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love..
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above..
I've dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead.
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said..
The greatest fan of your life... |
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| * My Baby* |
[Apr. 8th, 2004|11:51 pm] |
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| | " Dangerously In love"~ Beyonce | ] |
SpNkyS03: garyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
SpNkyS03: :-D
SpNkyS03: i want himmmmmmmmmmmm
WildLiLMeLs069: lol
SpNkyS03: hes my baby
SpNkyS03: i want to be in his arms
SpNkyS03: :-D
SpNkyS03: and kiss him
WildLiLMeLs069: aww lol
SpNkyS03: and hold him
SpNkyS03: lol
SpNkyS03: im dangerously (almost) in love with him
WildLiLMeLs069: aww thats cute
WildLiLMeLs069: in love
Awwww i miss my pooh!~ He will be home in like 40 days which seems like forever in my heart*
*If you asked me to I just might change my mind and let you in my heart forever*
Mels and I were on the radio.... I got bleeped for saying breast. |
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| Whew* |
[Apr. 4th, 2004|10:41 am] |
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| | complacent | ] |
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| | * All falls down*~Kayne West | ] |
Its been a crazy week since I last wrote in tha journal. I had so much pent up thoughts and feelings that I had dealt with. But the other nite I was talking to one of my best guy friends Kourtney who lives in Louisiana (woo hoo he will be home for the summer I cant wait)~ ne ways well you know the type of friends that are right alllll the time, well he is definitely one of them. Well he told me that I needed to write and get everything out needless to say the nest day at work I wrote 4 pages...damn a lot on my mind huh. Well I wrote and figured out sooo much and discovered a lot of my problems come from the fact that I think toooo much. Thats so true. If someone where to tell me that they saw a pink frog jumping across the street I would analyze the way they said it, ask 43758567 questions and prolly stress myself wondering how the frog got there, why its pink everything. I know that overnight you can never just stop doing that but i am going to try my best to do it.......then we will see that my journal wont be as down sometimes. Wish me luck.
Gary is coming home at the end of May...for details on that ask. lol
I love all my girls I must say~
The next thing is that I want a damn Grand Am....lol. Look at me moving up guys~ haha So thats my new BIGG adventure..getting a car. So thats exciting and a lil stressful. But we will see.
Anyways this week has been filled with sooo many laughs...compliments of Mels. Damn together everyday,lol.
Im going to try to think of some good jokes lets see
* make out wars
* "I got drunk when they told me they were gonna go buy the beer"
* How do I always loose my shirt??? lol
* Stunt 101
* Trickster
* "are u canadian?? then stop saying eh"
* I have 4657856 piercings, ill $9,000 on a car
* "Friends and Lovers".....ect
* Give me more champagne boys
* Mels has to say all the bad words because I dont say those Ok
* Coney with Mels and Chris...."there he is"
* beeping war at Coney
* Mels and I being so sleepy that we were laughing hysterically
* one word: frustrated
* hanging at the gas station huh
* meeting up with Greg
* Annoying Ass Abby (ooh Triple A)
* JuJuan and Chris are twins thats fucking amazing
I cant think of ne more right now. lol
Im outtie*
"I have had a perfectly wonderful evening, but this wasnt it."
*All kids are gifted; some just open their packages earlier than others*
*Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why we call it the present* |
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| Stolen* |
[Apr. 1st, 2004|06:03 pm] |
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| | bouncy | ] |
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| | "Overnight Celebrity"~ Twista | ] |
*When,where and how did we meet?
*Have you ever seen me with my shirt off?
*Have you ever seen me cry?
*Describe me in four adjectives:
*If we could spend a day together, what would we do?
*Have we ever gotten into a fight?
*If you gave me a present what would it be?
*Would you hug me?
*What do you really think of me?
*Have we ever kissed?
*Has there ever been anything you wanted to tell me, but were afraid to?
*Wanna make-out?
*Name one thing you like about me:
*Name one thing you DON'T like about me:
Fill this out* |
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| *Yup this sucks* |
[Mar. 29th, 2004|12:58 pm] |
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| | "Walked right outta Heaven"~ Jagged Edge | ] |
Well it is monday afternoon, and needless to say this weekend I could have definitely did without. Friday plans got all changed around, I ended up going on my date last nite which didnt end until this morning. lol. Anyways friday was alrite i was cranky enuff said. Saturday was when it all happened. Well In my last entry i updated about Gary and Saturday I was feeling a lil down about him as I was updating, well surprise surprise when I finished updating he was online, so I started spazzing out I started shaking uncontrollably, and crying.... I did all that because I got the brilliant idea to tell him that I wanted to stop talking to him as more then friends..... why? Because Im fucking stupid right. Well ne ways so I semi calmed down and started to talk to him about stuff a little bit, and then I sent him this BIG ass paragraph and what does he say to that??? "Im gonna have to get back to you on that one"~ So what do i say" are u being serous right now"....and he says: "yes the reason why I want to wait to get back to you is because i dont want to give you a half ass answer I want to be able to give you a definite answer, my nephew is tugging on me right now and im looking up this stuff for school so im kind of busy". Yep that was hs response. I was sooo pissed and sad... and my reasoning behind being all those things is because he still hasnt called. Is he ever going to call?? what am i supposed to do? I dont feel for ne one else. All my emotional connections are gone. I dunno man. I went out with Jason last night and I swear all I could think about was Gary. I cant do this again. I dunno i dont even feel like typing right now.
”Just once I want to fall in love and not have it hurt so bad in the end.”
TTYL |
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[Mar. 27th, 2004|07:19 pm] |
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| | numb | ] |
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| | * I dont wanna*~ Total | ] |
I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What i'm tryin to say is that I love you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I shold stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ai'nt jumpin like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn, Let it burn, Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn, Let it burn, Gotta let it burn
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody but I want you
Cuz the feelin ain't the same by myself
Callin her you name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
oo ooo ooo oooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my boo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin til you return (let it burn)
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ai'nt jumpin like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn, Let it burn, Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn, Let it burn, Gotta let it burn
Im twisted cuz one side of me is tellin me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (oooh)
(Repeat)
Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Oooh, Ooh Ooh Oooh (can ya feel me burnin?)
Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin til you return
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ai'nt jumpin like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn, Let it burn, Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn, Let it burn, Gotta let it burn
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"Foolish Girl, put your heart away. Maybe it will come out to play another day."
*Who wouldve thought that the only person that makes me smile is the person that is making me cry*
*Maybe I miss you and maybe you miss me, but i dont miss who u are i miss who u used to be*
* I dont wanna smile if you're not smiling with me* |
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